Where do we fit in? It’s natural to look for people with common interest and beliefs. It helps support personal convictions and validate choices. The web and blogs are full of information and stories of submissive men being controlled by a dominant woman.

The evolution of our relationship over the past few months has been enlightening. We have spent many hours discussing our relationship and testing new waters. I love submitting to Sweetness and having her control me and she enjoys having things done for her. For more than 100 days we have led a full time life of her control over me.

It seems we have a unique relationship and it has been a challenge searching for similar interests and relating to other stories online. So we may forge our own niche. This entry explains who we currently are and what we currently do.

We have been together over 30 years and we love having sex with each other. We have no interest in using chastity devices and I cannot remember the last time I masturbated without her being present. If I watch porn it is with Sweetness. I look at nude photos of women (mostly from the artistic and beauty end) and these are typically magazines, which are left out as Sweetness also pages through them. When I fantasize about sex it always includes Sweetness.

Sweetness usually dictates how we have sex and she is more likely to masturbate without me, but will then provide details about it later while we are involved with foreplay. Her sex drive is lower than mine but she engages in sex at our current frequency because she likes it and wants to keep me happy.

In return, I have committed to serve her as she sees fit. She is fairly lax with her authority and struggles with having to check that I am doing everything I say I will.

Sex over the past 3 months has been more passionate. Sweetness has found that she can put her tongue in my ear and tell me how she wants me to take over another household chore and it drives me wild. She has done that a number of times while we were having sex and it sent us to a whole new level. She could feel my cock swell inside her. Sweetness has also pulled on my ear or grabbed and pulled my hair during sex telling me ‘I own you’. I would reply with ‘your wish is my command’ and we both go crazy.

She prefers not talking about sex while I would be satisfied if that was all we talked about. Sweetness liked the Female Dominant (fD) task list I presented to her when we started this journey as most of it did not pertain to sex. The sections that did were not directly about sex but related to the perimeter pieces (hygiene and etiquette).

So that puts us somewhere between BDSM and Female Dominance with her being luke-warm and I being very open to it. Sweetness has done her fair share of kinky stuff but she doesn’t talk about it or look to try new things. If she really got going with the female dominance, it would be interesting to see if the tables would turn.

I try to step back and serve her without making suggestions or directing but my mind is consumed with the thought of her total control over me. Sweetness is in my subconscious. When I think of sex, she is there. Now my fantasies include household tasks that I do to please her and make her want me. We are working to develop a protocol that would allow me to use all my thought energy into providing input and suggestions in a submissive way while not just give it all away with no consideration.

Our house has benefited from this power play over the past 100 days. It has never been cleaner.

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