My mind is usually on sex. If it’s not, it’s just one synapse away. Lately, thinking about sex is rolled in with serving Sweetness and being dominated by her. I fantasize about her control of me and how exciting it makes me feel. I’m constantly reviewing what I should and could be doing to server her. Much of it is becoming second nature.
My challenge lies in the fact that as I spend all this time thinking of serving her and adding new things, it leaves me way ahead of her thought process. I don’t really like telling her these thoughts because I don’t want to dictate what she does and it feels sexier when she come up with things. I’m also afraid it may be too much for me to handle and then I only have myself to blame for giving the suggestion. I wouldn’t mind divulging things if I was coursed by her to reveal these items as then it would ultimately be her search for the information that led to the new rules / tasks. And, if she had certain areas she wanted to explore she could quiz me about them during some teasing to reveal new possibilities.
I enjoy the feeling of having her trap me by her questions, where the only answer I can give is one that has no advantage to me and gives everything to her. I love hearing how I am hers to control, how I can only cum when she permits it, and how I am only permitted a chance to earn one orgasm a week, how I do her bidding, and how I will never get that control back. My cock turns rock hard and I lust after her when hearing those things.
Which brings me to the title – I am oblivious to the effort I put in to serving her when she is sexually teasing me as all I want is to please her and feel her praise. In fact, most of the time I am oblivious regardless.